Reread my stories in medium makes me feel like a hyprocite person. I just want to say that i’m sorry if sometimes, in the reality, my behavior shows the opposite way — yet i still do my best.
I don’t want labeled as a kind person, it brings a lot of pressure for me. I just try my best to live on my personal values. I failed sometimes to be consistent with my own values, and it makes me blaming myself.
I often feel lost, take a wrong decision, sometimes hurting other people, doubting my potential so much, sometimes my talks are bigger than my act, I couldn’t be emphatic with my own emotions, I am still struggling to tolerate my pain, and i’m a sinner.
But, one thing for sure is i have a desire to grow better every day. I should accept my own flaws, change it slowly and i should appreciate my potential more.
I know that i still have a lot to learn. There is so much courage in me to walking into the unknown, knowing wholeheartedly that i can and i will figure it out along the way.
